Beaudin’s Leukemia

In January of 2019 our family’s story took a hard left turn and we found ourselves hurdling down the pediatric cancer path. Slowly, we found our footing, then 4 months before the end of treatment, November 2020, we experienced relapse and are yet again, are trying to figure out what the next steps forward look like.

At 6 1/2 years old Beaudin was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. He received treatment at Children’s Hospital of Colorado following the COG 9032 protocol. In November of 2020, 20 months into 24 months of treatment, Beaudin relapsed in his spinal fluid. He did bridge chemo until the end of March 2021, when we traveled to Philadelphia to participate in a research trial for CarT therapy.

I started this blog as a way to process the good, the bad, and the ugly of our life with cancer. Overtime, other parents with children with cancer started reaching out, saying that the posts were offering them clarity, comfort, and hope. There could be not greater gift to me, no great salve in my wound than to know that my words could offer even a moment of respite.

You can find specific posts on each phase of frontline treatment under the menu tabs by the same name from the home page. You can also find them below:

Induction

Integrative Choices Part 1: Food

There are a million and one different ways to help support your child’s body while experiencing Leukemia. Ranging from fleeing to Mexico and finding a holistic cancer clinic to indulging on hospital cafeteria milkshakes at every appointment, the choices are…

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Meeting Deb.

(Photo by Joel Blocker, for UCHealth) The first time Deb drew Beau’s labs, she sat with him for a full 20 minutes before she even brought out a needle. She let him ask 158 questions and moved slow around the…

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A.L.L. Induction- a technical review

Induction is 29 days. It is the first phase of frontline treatment. Frontline is the initial portion of the 2-3 year treatment for acute lymphoblastic leukemia. Days Spent Inpatient: Days 1-4, 7-18 Medical details: 2 Bone Marrow Aspirates 1 Permanent…

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the inevitable nature of snowflakes

The sun wasn’t much past rising. All the snowflakes in the air reflected the light in a way that made it seem later than it was. I walked into the dark kitchen and looked out the window and paused. The…

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Cold, hard facts about A.L.L and Induction

I normally blog as a narrative, but with all the details of what’s going on, I thought it may be worth laying out some more details in a more expository fashion. It’s outside my comfort zone. That is for sure.…

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Rushing into forever.

He didn’t give me time to adjust the lighting. I wanted the moment to be captured. Surely with a photo, but maybe even on video. I wanted to make sure everyone saw how bravely he took the clippers to his…

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Consolidation

How to Shovel Snow

I worked for over an hour to clear the drive way. The snow storm had come and gone and left behind six inches of wet, heavy spring snow. The kids had been home from school for the second day in…

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A.L.L. Consolidation- a technical review

Consolidation is 28 days. It is the second phase of frontline treatment. Frontline is the initial portion of the 2-3 year treatment for acute lymphoblastic leukemia. Days Spent Inpatient: NONE! (oh sweet baby Jesus!) Medical details: 3 intrathecal chemo doses…

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Interim Maintenance 1

Interim Maintenance- a technical review

Interim Maintenance is 56 days. It is the fourth phase of frontline treatment. Frontline is the initial portion of the 2-3 year treatment for acute lymphoblastic leukemia. Days Spent Inpatient: NONE! (oh sweet baby Jesus!) The PTSD of Induction is…

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Delayed Intensification

Delayed Intensification- a technical review

Delayed Intensification is 56 days. It is the fourth phase of frontline treatment. Frontline is the initial portion of the 2-3 year treatment for acute lymphoblastic leukemia. Days Spent Inpatient: NONE! Thankfully. Medical details: 2 intrathecal chemo doses via lumbar…

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Interim Maintenance 2

Interim Maintenance 2- a technical review

Interim Maintenance 2 is 56 days. It is the fifth and final phase of frontline treatment. Frontline is the initial portion of the 2-3 year treatment for acute lymphoblastic leukemia. Days Spent Inpatient: NONE! Except for the visit to clinic…

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Maintenance

We have worked [518 days] without an accident.

*I gave pause before publishing a post with such profanity, but it’d be inaccurate any other way….* For 518 days we have avoided the curious toddler from getting in to the slew of dangerous medical items passing in and out…

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Privacy concerns.

I have a post that I can’t finish. Part of the reason is that I don’t know what else to say, but I know it is not complete. It just hangs there with more to be said and no words…

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Here’s to less weight in 2020!

If you want to loose weight this year, I’m with you. I know. It’s so uncouth. The Body Positivity and Female Empowerment movements would have my head. It’s not about weight! Love the skin your in! I’ve seen social media…

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